Posts after slips, restarts, or breakthroughs
Some days I don’t crash. I just coast. Not checked out, but not fully checked in either. Sliding through the day like a busted shopping cart with one janky wheel. Recovery isn’t always dramatic. Sometimes it’s the slow fade I need to watch for. That comfortable drift toward old patterns, toward half-measures, toward the voice … Read more
Made it to 20.Twenty days of abstinence.Not clean. Not smooth. Not easy.But real. And that’s what matters. There were a dozen points this week where the old script tried to take over:“Blow it now—before it gets too real.”“You’re close enough.”“Nobody cares.” But I didn’t.I didn’t sabotage it. That’s different. I used to throw a grenade … Read more
Just got off a meeting.Because I’m on the edge.Not in a poetic way. Not in a “breakthrough” kind of way.In a “someone look at me wrong and I might lose it” kind of way. Tired. Restless. Pissed for no reason.And every reason. Didn’t want to pray.Didn’t want to hear one more person say “just for … Read more
Caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror today.Not just physically. Spiritually.I saw someone coming back to life.It was quick. But it was real.God, let me keep glimpsing that man. #ProgressNotPerfection #OneDayAtATime #FoodAddictionRecovery #SeeingChange #SpiritualAwakening #QuietTime #PrayerAndAction
Day 16 – Honesty & Self-Will The hardest lie to spot is the one we’re still living. We say we want freedom. We pray for abstinence. We claim we’re willing. But self-will has a sneaky way of dressing up like honesty. It says, “Just this once.” It says, “That doesn’t count.” It says, “You’re doing … Read more
Day 15 – DragI didn’t leap into today—I dragged myself.Pulled by prayer, coffee, and the thought of not blowing it.Sometimes victory looks like not quitting.Dragging counts. #OneDayAtATime #DeeBoStyle #ProgressNotPerfection #KeepShowingUp #LowEnergyRecovery #PhoneCalls #PrayerAndAction
When the focus is just for today, every day becomes Day One.Stay in the present. Be grateful. Do service.And above all else—live by no matter what.Don’t eat, no matter what.Make your calls, no matter what.Open that toolbox and swing that fucking hammer. Nail home your abstinence for one more day.You want to eat something? Eat … Read more
Still here. Still hurting. Still choosing not to give in.That counts. StillHere #ProgressNotPerfection #FoodAddictionRecovery #100DaysOfReturn #DeeBoStyle
If I don’t say it, I’ll stuff it. If I don’t speak it, I’ll sneak it.Today I snapped at my family—not because they were wrong, but because I was uncomfortable in my own skin.I didn’t speak my struggle, so it came out sideways.God, help me speak before I spiral. Help me share before I shame. … Read more
Day 1 – ReturnI didn’t come back polished. I came back because I was dying.This is my line in the sand. Again. 100DaysOfReturn #ReturnAgain #FoodAddictionRecovery #DayOne #PresenceNotPerfection #DeeBoStyle