Unpolished or “dump it raw” style entries
Rough day.Rough start, rough middle, rough everything. That damn voice…The addict voice wasn’t whispering today—it was fucking screaming.Full volume.“You can’t do this.”“One bite won’t matter.”“You’re tired. You deserve something.” Deserve?What I deserve is peace.What I deserve is freedom.What that voice wants is chaos. I rode the Struggle Bus all fuckin day.Slumped in the back seat.Sweaty … Read more
Just got off a meeting.Because I’m on the edge.Not in a poetic way. Not in a “breakthrough” kind of way.In a “someone look at me wrong and I might lose it” kind of way. Tired. Restless. Pissed for no reason.And every reason. Didn’t want to pray.Didn’t want to hear one more person say “just for … Read more
It’s so fucking loud.Like I want to pound nails into my ears just to shut the noise up.The voices, the fear, the tension, the self-talk that sounds like an auctioneer on meth—nonstop.I crave food because it drowns it out.But God, I need something deeper.Give me a quiet that doesn’t numb—just holds me. #QuietTime #InnerChaos #RawRecovery … Read more
I made a mess of it. Not just the food. The day. The promises. The prayers.But God’s still here. And I’m still showing up.I heard a guy in a meeting say, “Nobody pissed me off today, so that was good.” His intention was simple: Don’t be a dick.Today, I’m borrowing that.No explosions. No martyrdom. No … Read more